Being Erica s01e06 – Adultescence


Opening Dialogue : When you a kid being grownup look so easy, nobody tell you it’s harder than it looks, that those feelings that you have, you don’t measure up, you are not keeping pace, they never go away.

Erica have a misunderstanding with Judith who might choose her as the godmother of her baby. After Erica found out that she was not being chosen may relate to the negative impression of not feeling like a grown up. Dr. Tom sends Erica back to her Bat Mitzvah (Jewish culture as symbolic of official transition into adulthood), to fix the inappropriate behavior of being freak out and running away, just like she walked out of the baby shower. Erica fixed the Bat Mitzvah by singing songs live to make excitement of the party. After she comes back to the present, she reconcilate with Judith. Meanwhile, Ivan would like to remain friend with Erica because of Clair’s official divorce paper.

Ending Dialogue : That comes a point when you realize truth is this, being grownup is simply knowing who you are and having the courage to be that person, worst and all.

Dr Tom Quotes at episode 6:

“Those who fail to learn from history are doomed to repeat it.” Winston Churchill

“No party is fun unless seasoned with folly.” Desiderius Erasmus

“Learn to be what you are, and learn to resign with good grace all that you are not.” Henri Frederic Amiel

“It takes a lot of courage to grow up and be who you really are.” E.E. Cummings

Soundtrack of the episode 6 :

Grow by Jaylene Johnson
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Capricious Life by Marco Solo
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String of Blinking Lights by Paper Moon
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Take On Me by Cast
(originally by A-Ha)

Girls Just Want To Have Fun by Cast
(originally by Cyndi Lauper)

Hungry Eyes by Cast
(originally by Eric Carmen)

Do You Love Me by Cast
(originally by The Contours)

Hava Nagalia by Parry Music Library
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Being Erica s01e05 – The Secret of Now


Do we have this moment in time? Fear of confrontation and lack of confidence seems are moments in time. To leap the unknown, to seize the moment and believe that you can turn confrontation into constructive possibility.

Opening Dialogue : First day of the new job kind of like first day of your new career, will it be love at first sight, or will it be thanks for dinner, maybe I’ll call you some time, stick your height, so no shortcut are allowed, nothing less, then profession will do, caused the day will be the most important day of your life. It could be the day all fall into the place or when it all fall into pieces.

Erica starts her new assistant job at River Rock Publishing, but the start is not very smooth. She breaks her heel of the high heel and found out that the one who hired her has replaced by Julianne, quite a mean boss. While Julianne wants to kill a book from a new writer, Erica is able to see the juice inside in front of the team meeting make Julianne mad at her. Thus Julianne makes fun of Erica’s short story in front of her team and fires Erica. Erica is not good at confrontation, she can’t speak in front of Julianne. Dr. Tom then sends Erica back to April 1995 to confront her creative-writing professor. She cannot present her own snowflake poem at first, instead using Britney’s baby one more time lyrics, which impressed the creative-writing professor, named the poem voice of fake, and invite Erica to present in the poem writer gathering. Erica finally decide to present her own snow fake poem instead and is able to confront her creative-writing professor. Julianne steals Erica’s idea to impress her boss successfully, and Julianne stays Erica. Meanwhile, Ivan received Claire’s divorce paper and being very sad.

Ending Dialogue : Seems most of the time we walk around with the world I knew, but when you in the cause of something dramatic, maybe life changing, it’s like a filter comes off, and suddenly everything comes alive, and even the smallest moment is in fill with the magic possibility, and you think, this is the night we drop our mask and reveal your true self, this is the night when everything is rewritten

Dr Tom Quotes at episode 5:

  • You don’t miss your water until your well runs dry. – William Bell
  • While we are postponing, life speeds by. – Lucius Annaeus Seneca, 5 BC
  • Defeatism is the wretchedest of policies. – George Bernard Shaw
  • Oops… I did it again. – Britney Spears
  • Courage is not the towering oak that sees storms come and go–it is the fragile blossom that opens in the snow. – Alice M. Swain

Soundtrack of the episode :

Enchantment by Lily Frost
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Hit Me Baby, One More Time by Danielle Lindy & Trevor Yuile
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Is It Just Spring? by Lily Frost
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Every Little Thing by Melanie Doane
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Love Can Hurt by Cavendish Music
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No Rain by Blind Melon
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Tubthumping by Chumbawamba
The song starts playing right after Erica argues with Lozar at the Poetry Slam

Glee – Lea Michele sings 2006 The Beatles’ Yesterday in new season


Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away
Now it looks as though they’re here to stay  
Oh, I believe in yesterday

Suddenly I’m not half the man I used to be  
There’s a shadow hanging over me  
Oh, yesterday came suddenly

Why she had to go  
I don’t know, she wouldn’t say  
I said something wrong  
Now I long for yesterday

Yesterday love was such an easy game to play
Now I need a place to hide away  
Oh, I believe in yesterday

Why she had to go?  
I don’t know, she wouldn’t say  
I said something wrong  Now I long for yesterday

Yesterday love was such an easy game to play  
Now I need a place to hide away  
Oh, I believe in yesterday

Being Erica s01e03 – Plenty of Fish


Could we take the leap? Even there is risk, could we face the fear and get through it? That’s what Erica fear and being caught up about relationship.

Opening Dialogue : The first date is like a open house, the picture look great, the dimension are good and as you stand threshold you think, could this be it ? could this be the one ? You open the door full of anticipation, you walk in, and then you start to look into the details, the cracks in the wall, the weird that may thing, no, this isn’t for me.

Erica dated a new guy who seems smart and cute, but lied about his story. Erica was a bit disappointed. Erica then joined the school reunion and feels failures about herself since high school. And she decides to ask Ivan who recently a divorce and moved back to Toronto next to her, to be her fake boyfriend. Erica meets two people she hated the most one is Katie who is mean and competitive with Erica. The second one is Zack Creed who was the popular kid to whom Erica lost her virginity, but he humiliated her after that. At the same time, Erica had interview at River Rock of non-fiction department. an assistant entry level job. She meets Alex Berlin, an old classmate, who looks totally different as grown up. Dr. Tom sends her back to high school trip. Erica starts to make a revenge to Zack and lost her virginity to Alex instead. When she came back from time travel, she wants to develop with Alex who worked for training engineering. Katie then find out Ivan was the fake boyfriend of Erica and humiliates her of making up a fake boyfriend in front of Alex. Alex is disappointed and bearing know each other. He left because he was being cheated from a long relationship before and hated Erica lied on him. She meets Dr. Tom, Dr Tom explained to her, because she was afraid what come next, she knows the risk that lead to love that may cause pain, the fear of that pain, that what hold you back, it’s what you need to let go of. Erica said “what if that I can’t ?”

Dr. Tom ” that’s not the question, that’s not the question of what you can’t…taking a risk is like a jumping of the cliff, so leap into the unknown with absolutely no guarantee, ultimately Erica you just have to decide, you have to choose, how are you going to be, you could spend the rest of your life caught up in that fear, OK or you could face it, take the leap, see what comes.”

When she came back home, she and Ivan kisses with each other, will they develop a relationship ?

Ending Dialogue : Every Little Thing by Melanie Doane : Every little thing I do, Trickles down and lands on you, I don’t plan to get it wrong, Maybe keep your raincoat on.

Dr Tom Quotes at episode 3:
•Patient: Barbara ‘Barb’ Strange
•Life is so constructed that an event does not, cannot, will not, match the expectation. – Charlotte Brontë

Soundtrack of the episode :

Old School by Hedley Erica and Noah go to the school reunion

Wheat Kings by Marco DiFelice & Trevor Yuile
(originally by The Tragically Hip)   I’m Too Sexy by Trevor Yuile & Joettes
(originally by Right Said Fred)

Two Princes by Spin Doctors add scene description

Girl With a Problem by The Northern Pikes add scene description

Pump Up the Volume by MARRS add scene description

Every Little Thing by Melanie Doane

Being Erica s01e02 – What I Am Is What I Am

Who am I ? We made a lot of choices in life which shape who we are, and some of them maybe good or bad. Maybe we made bad choices before, the key is what about now and the future, We can make better choice now and make a whole new different future.

Opening Dialogue : a resume , it tells us a story, school, job, hobbies, it’s a snapshot of who you are, but at the end of the day, it all comes down the choices we make…choices look close enough and you can see them everywhere, but what do you see your life is the series of your life is a bad choices, when you give anything with make different one, the question is if you could go back and do all differently, would you still be you?

Erica starts to look for a new jobs, and drops off the resume to different publishing companies. She meets her old classmate, Antiquity who were competitive with each other in the university time, is the head of the fiction division. She got the job from joining the secret society of the university, her boss is also the member of the secret society. The secret society also tapped Erica to join in before in fact. Erica applies the job as Antiquity’s assistant. The vivid comparison between two made Erica sad, as arrogant Antiquity is in the high place while she is in the middle of career change. Erica is insecure, with sense of hurry, and want to be upfront about not having a job with pressure from parent. Thus she accepts to work on Uncle’s wedding dress shop while she wants this as a temporarily thing. Then Ivan come to meet Erica, good friend from university, as his wife Claire cheated on him, another low time of his life. Erica did not understand why pick her, but Dr Tom explains the contract between two, Erica needs to trust him, and Erica cannot go back to fix other people’s mistake. Dr. Tom send Erica back to 1995 to fix the secret society. Both Erica and Antiquity successfully joined the secret society, but in order to gain more from the leader of the secret society, and compete with Antiquity, she sold out Claire, Ivan’s girlfriend. At last, Erica decided to quit the society which is a society to degrade people. That means she makes the same choice as before and apologize to Claire and regret what she has done to hurt Claire. She quit the job of wedding dress job, which is not suitable to her as well that she is not happy with. Dr. Tom: “Our life is like a house of cards, some of the cards are cosmetic, while other are low bearing wall, you can move one of those cards and the whole things are tumbling down…what make you, you, you become something else, your gut told you to avoid the secret society rather the first time, you are right to listen to that that are many ways to achieve our goals, but ignoring your inner voice is not right”. Ivan gets a new departments and Erica gets an interview opportunity from River Rock Publishing.

Ending Dialogue : Everyone got their own path, some are only just beginning, while others end all too soon, however you do it, the fact is the path you took, the choices you made to find who you are. Choices, they are the building block of our lives, they shape our past, present and future, and despite all mistake I’ve made, everyday brings with it, everything brings with new choices and a whole new world possibilities.

Dr Tom Quotes at episode 2:

•The use of traveling is to regulate imagination by reality and, instead of thinking how things may be, to see them as they are. – Samuel Johnson
•We are the sum of our decisions, and as long as you’re happy, that’s all that matters. – Antigone Morris, Erica’s classmate
•Those who plot the destruction of others often perish in the attempt. – Thomas Moore

Soundtrack of the episode :
No Words by Emilie Mover add scene description
What’s Up? by 4 Non Blondes
Erica finds herself at the front of a protest for lower tuition fees led by Claire
People Are Strange by Echo & The Bunnymen
Erica and Antigone go to the Liverati initiation
Everybody Knows by Concrete Blonde
Judith looks at the newspaper, which exposes Claires secret

Being Erica s01e01 – Dr. Tom


Being Erica is a Canadian comedy-drama television series aired on CBC from January 5, 2009 to December 12, 2011. One of my favorite tv series. There was an interview with Jana Sinyor, the creator mentioned that there may be an America version. Will it really happen? Hope this is happening.

Opening dialogue: “You don’t have friend you had, the girl who seems to have all figured out. She’s got the great job, the great guy, the great life, well I am not that girl, my name is Erica Strange, I am 32, still working at dead-end job, still sleeping with my cat, I know people who wonder why the cute girl with the great education and then the great friends can get it together, there is a simple answer : Bad Decision, I could teach a course on messing up your life with I am that good to get everything wrong, the worst part is, it wasn’t always like this, are you still a rising star these day?”

Thirty-two year old Erica Strange had high education but fired by company which she worked, his boss commented her as too “bright” for the job. She believed that the bad decision she made in life that made her have bad life. She gets dump by her new dated boyfriend, and gets hospitalized for drinking coffee nuts which she is allergic to. Erica later meets a self-proclaimed therapist Dr. Tom in hospital. Dr. Tom left her a name card to see him, but Erica has hesitation on therapy; With family pressure which everyone at home seems thinking that her life is so mess up, Erica escapes from home to meet Dr. Tom. Erica thinks she screw up everything “with bad choices. Most people has few regrets, she got tones, there are so many things that I will do it differently”. Dr. Tom asks Erica to write down her regrets and requires her to make a commitment to complete till end of the whole therapy session. Erica cannot make up her mind. Dr. Tom then sends her back to her high school party which originally Erica ruins her high school party to fix it. She does make a different choice, instead of mess up with alcohol, she saved her friend but in an embarrassing way sort of. End of the party,

Erica says to the teacher “you seems nice and normal on my age…the really unbelievable thing is that I screw it up again. I am such an idiot”, her teacher says “actually I was thinking that you did what you have to do to get your friend who needed…I say that it’s brave, I know that you have difficult night, and I know that some of these student will gonna to talk.” Erica says “story of my life”.

Erica then goes back home, meets her parents and sort of boyfriend. She decides that she decide to blow off the sort of boyfriend. Instead she goes to find Dr. Tom, his office has become a café. Dr. Tom will have next session wit Erica. Erica believes that she fails again. She care about other people’s saying.

Dr. Tom says we don’t have to do anything…I never expect you to stop caring, Erica, I just want you to stop letting that get in your way, you didn’t fail Erica, what are your parents’ opinions, your friends opinions, of course there are always gonna matter but that’s do matter as much as your own. Dr. Tom will see Erica soon

Ending dialogue: change, sometimes it’s up and new, sometimes it hits you over the head, and sometimes you turn a corner only find your friend in some small way and the world is not quite it used to, so where I go from here, no idea, and for the first time, I feel like there is a good thing.

How many regrets do you have in life ? We are never able to change the past like Being Erica(TV), Sliding doors(Movie), Butterfly Effects(Movie) etc. We can’t turn back time like Dr. Tom, When we think back, and connect the dots, is that destiny, fate or serendipity that we are never able to escape to a different path? We are never able to find the answer ? The present and the future are the key.

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Dr Tom Quotes at episode 1:

  • In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity. – Albert Einstein
  • Curiosity does, no less than devotion, pilgrims make. – Abraham Cowle
  • Pressure makes diamonds. – General George S. Patton
  • The life which is unexamined is not worth living. – Plato
  • We learn to do something by doing it. There is no other way. – John Halt
  • Do not weep; do not wax indignant. Understand. – Baruch Spinoza
  • If life’s journey be endless where is its goal?  The answer is, it is everywhere. – Rabindranath Tagore

Soundtrack of the episode :

Tricks Are For Kids by Lauren Evans add scene description
Isn’t This a Lovely Day by Stacey Kent add scene description
Where Does the Good Go by Tegan and Sara
This song appears, when her family and friends appears. After they start talking about her, and she has had enough.
Yesterday Man (I’m So Lonely) by Roz Bell
This is the song that the man on the street is playing on his guitar
Tainted Love by Neverending White Lights add scene description
There She Goes by The La’s
Erica gets back to her school years.
My Old School by Steely Dan add scene description
Roam by The B-52’s add scene description
Right Here Right Now by Jesus Jones add scene description
Wishing Well by Terence Trent D’Arby add scene description
It Must Have Been Love by Roxette
Erica and Noah make out in his car.
Free Your Mind by En Vogue add scene description
U Can’T Touch This by MC Hammer add scene description
More Than Words by Extreme add scene description
Being Erica Theme by Lily Frost & Trevor Yuile add scene description

Hello – Lionel Richie vs Glee

This week’s pretty tough, my favorite tv shows left only Glee and Fringe, OMG!

I stopped watching Glee for a while. Although Glee is kinda “high school musical”, somehow it’s still Ryan Murphy’s production(Nip/Tuck), you should always expect something dark but profound meaning inbetween. I especially like the guest stars part, will Lady GaGa there soon?

This week’s favorite is Rachel and Jesse’ Hello:

Just found out that the original Lionel Richie music video, a romantic professor and blind student love story. I miss the old days. In the days when we don’t have fancy technology and hi-definition screen, storylines and plots much more vivid and rich spritually which shows less but tells more.